Saturday, July 31, 2010

Am I smart enough?

I don’t feel like I am smart enough to blog! There is some really cool blogs out there and the writing is heartfelt and meaningful. I sit back in my seat and wipe the tears from my eyes and wonder if I belong in the blogging world. I want to belong, so badly. I just don’t always know how to express myself in words.

You see, I had learning difficulties as a child. I struggled with everything at school, and couldn’t read a word at all until I was 8 years old. I knew all the special classes, and special teachers made be stand out and I hated them for it. I was constantly teases by other kids, had my lunch money stolen numerous times, and cried every day. I didn’t like being different and longed to be like everyone else. All the stress didn’t help my asthma and I was in hospital lots and missed a lot of school. I had to repeat prep, which didn’t help me at all.

I left school at 16, didn’t even complete the year. I got a job at Big W as a checkout chick. From there I have worked at McDonalds, Bunning’s Warehouse and Red Roster. (I did go back to school and completed adult VCE, but that’s a story for another day). I have never had a job I have been proud of until I started my own business.

I have gained more confidence as I get older. Having a supportive husband changed me a lot. But my early experiences still haunt me today. So please excuse me if I spell things wrong, or don’t write them correctly and if I sound dumb. I am still finding my place in this lovely online world.


Surprisingly Susie said...

Aw Kelly *hugs* I couldn't not comment on this. I feel exactly the same way a lot of the time. But you need to remind yourself that you are NOT dumb and you shouldn't feel like you are not smart enough to blog. EVERYone has the right to blog, I barely know what day it is half the time! haha My spelling is shitty, I swear a lot, I always have trouble expressing myself and my words which usually results in huge lapses of time before I post from one week (or month!) to another, so don't worry we're in the same boat. I also feel the more you blog the easier it gets? Well that's what i've read... who knows? Just keep blogging about what you love and what you love is great, and very meaningful. You take amazing photos and have a lovely family - be proud of your blog, it's fantastic. :)

m.e (Cathie) said...

are you really qustioning yourself after writing some wonderful posts & sharing your amazing pics with us all.
you are very talented and very honest and that is reason enough to keep creating this wonderful corner of the blogosphere.
I think you are a very strong woman who despite your past struggles are a natural to blogging.
keep doing what you do & I love popping by & reading your adventures.
I always say, when in doubt..add some pics :)
hugs to you Kelly ♥

Kristi said...

this was really touching and heartfelt...anyone as honest and beautiful as you belongs here in blogland. xo.

ps. i love what cathie said, "when in doubt add some photos." if you look at my blog, there are a lot of photos. haha.

pss. i misspell everything. hugs.

LJ said...

I just found your blog and love it! With your honesty and openess you will soon have many people checking in daily. I am new to the blogging world and am touched by the kindness of this online community. You will fit right in.

{Amy} said...

kelly- i think we all feel this way as far as comparing ourselves to other blogs, other people's writing, just can't do that! I have learned that if I compare my blog to others or my photographs to others it's going to do nothing but make me feel bad about what I am doing!
I am sorry to hear about your struggles an di think you are doing a wonderful job finding your way, good for you and for your honesty!

Kelly said...

Aww, thanks guys for your kind words. I was having one of those days yesterday when I wrote that post.

PinkPatentMaryJanes said...

I'm loving your blog Kelly - keep on going. As others have said, never compare yourself - that's the beauty of blogs, the individuality!

Bron @ Baby Space said...

Hi Kelly, this is my first visit to your blog and this is a beautiful post. I feel like one of the most rewarding things about blogging is finding this lovely online world - just as you say. I'm happy to have found your lovely blog :)

lauren carney said...

hello lovely one!
i'm swooning over your fanciful pictures and am simply delighted by your blog!
thank-you for such splendid posts! x

Andrea said...

I love your blog! You write wonderful posts and your photos are's all interesting. Give yourself a pat on the back and feel very very proud of yourself! xx

MultipleMum said...

Oh man! You are doing a great job! I love your blog and your pics (so much envy for your pics). Keep at it. We love reading your stuff:)

Debra said...

I love coming here...your posts are interesting and heartfelt. Your photos are absolutely gorgeous! Keep at it, you are doing wonderful!